48 hours.....

I would like to paint a picture for you.... 48 hours from right now this will be what is happening:
I will be driving my car, equipped with my mom and my overnight bag, to the hospital in downtown Minneapolis in rush hour traffic. I will try to stay calm while listening to a CD (probably NKOTB because I am obsessed with that CD) Or maybe the newly leaked BSB songs, I am not sure yet... Any way... I will be trying not to freak out inside and will be reminding my mom that she is NOT allowed to cry when I leave for surgery. I am already freaked out enough, I don't need her to cry. She is allowed to cry, however, once she can no longer see me.

I am wanting this to just be over so I know I am still alive and well!

Right now my good friend is checking in to the hospital for her surgery. I am praying for her all day! I know she is going to do great! I am going to go visit after work and see how she is doing. Last night she and I went to Target to get some last minute things that she needed, namely the awesome meds that make you empty your bowels! I will get to enjoy the same luxury tomorrow, let me tell ya, I am NOT excited! But I AM excited about getting this done and changing my life.

So, this weekend, I kinda ate more than usual on Sunday but other than that I have remained well within my allotted caloric intake and protein requirements.

I am going to go now, and say a prayer for my friend...

I feel like crap

I am so freaking sick of migraines!!!! I am praying that losing weight helps me out a bit because nothing else seems to help! I have been on daily meds to help, abortive meds, head injections, etc... so far nothing really REALLY works... Currently I get Botox injections and they definitely help but do not help as much as I would like. I still have some horrible headaches that make me wonder... I get headaches on average 2-3 times/week. This is wayyyy too much! Sometimes I question myself- I wonder if I really get them as often and as uncontrollable as I do, but then I get another headache and I remember how real the pain is... I just want a break. So many of my plans are ruined because of these freaking migraines, it isn't even funny. I have better things to do than worry about my pain management. SO MANY more things, let me tell ya! I guess we will see very shortly since my surgery is only 5 days away! HOLY COW, I can count that on ONE hand! Geeze, this getting close!

Makes me want a hot dog real bad

Ok, so I know I already blogged today, but I have to find a way to get my mind off the food I am NOT eating right now. For lunch I had 6 oz of chicken broth and NASTY chocolate pudding with added protein while the rest of my co-workers are eating the most delicious display of picnic food I have ever seen! They did a potluck today with hot dogs and all the yummy things that go along with them; ketchup, mustard, buns, pickles, relish, onion, cheese, jalepenos, etc.... they also have chips and sweets and pop- it makes me want to break down! I have never wanted a hot dog so bad!!!! SAVE ME! The sucky thing is that post-op I could totally have a hot dog! But just because I am on this stupid liquid pre-op diet, my life is nearly ruined. **tear**

Deep breath.....

So today was a very rough day in the liquid diet dept. I had to go to a McDonalds for my second job, and I wanted nothing more than an order of fries! It made me regret that I did not go to McD's and have my "last" order of fries before I started this liquid diet. Sitting in that restaurant was like torture. I sat down with a glass of ice and my EAS drink and tried to pretend it was like eating french fries- only the shake was chocolately, not salty and crispy. Somehow I made it out of those big yellow arches without caving in. Felt really good!

Ohmigod Ohmigod you guys!

I went to Legally Blonde the Musical last night. It. Was. AWESOME!!! I love the theatre and this show is just so much fun! I love that they had real dogs in the play as well- 2 of them! And they use rescue dogs! :) My Mom bought me a ticket as a pre-op present. It was perfect!

And as far as the liquid diet goes, I am hanging in there!! I have stayed strong and am not cheating and want to do this the right way! Woohoo!!!

So, to be short and sweet today, I shall go. SNAPS!

I WANT TO EAT SOMETHING REAL

All these delusional people told me that the first few days of this liquid diet would be the worst and that it gets easier. One word: LIARS! It is getting worse and harder and I am now STARVING!! I want food. If I could eat, I would eat:
Cheese quesadilla at taco bell- TONS of hot sauce
Roast beef pot roast- Moms recipe
Chicken Chimichangas and cheese sauce with chips
Pintos and cheese
Big juicy cheeseburger from Fridays with fries
Caesar salad with tons of parm and fried chicken
Suddenly Salad pasta
PIZZA
Hot dog
Fried green peppers with cheese
Red velvet cake
Fried zucchini
Chicken chow mein
Big Mac
Cheese; cheddar, pepper jack, mozarella (fresh), American, feta, ricotta....
Here is the worst part... even the dog food smelled edible! OMG someone save me!

Ok, so I just keep telling myself
This is gonna be worth it
This is gonna be worth it
This is gonna be worth it
THIS BETTER BE WORTH IT!!!!!

Liquid Diet

Today is my 4th day of my liquid diet, and I must say it isn't THAT bad.... I am not saying I Love them, but whatever... Oh, and I have to give a shout out to BLENDER BOTTLES! They are the most amazing invention ever! Ok, maybe thats a little exaggerated, but they are awesome. The first day of my liquid diet I put my water and protein powder in a cup and began stirring...and stirring.... and stirring... No matter how fast I stirred, the powder would not mix with the water! GRRRR So I prettymuch chewed my shake that first day. Not so pleasant. So I went on one of my WLS message boards and asked for help, and thankfully I learned about blender bottles.LOVE THEM! No one should ever be asked to make a protein drink without one!And with that, I am going to go. I am going to convince my mom to go down to the dam with me and walk around today. There isn't a cloud in the sky!!!